lost my vision

light bulbs out...cant find the switch or a replacement...alone in the dark ..confused and disoriented. battling my demons...force to battle yours too.. how much is to much? i dont fucken know how long i can hold on... having visions... i dont even want to describe... having dilusions that are coming to life. my heart aint that strong ..afraid its gonna bust in the middle of the fight. have to hold up my weight and those of others ..shoulders aint that strong..so we'll see how long that will last.