used to be, to weak to care..

crying but im to weak to weep to weak to think.. to dazed to care. under the influence of everything.. holding my thoughts hostage my feelings have been kidnapped by my interior.. my body has been numb.. but now im scared cause the feeling is wearing off.. feeling pain for the first time in a while.. how long have i been gone? how long was i lost? where have you been? cant be me with out you.. a vessel with no soul is a zombie... walking, runnin, talkin, with no thoughts, no cares.. heart beats again.. and again.. there they go, have the feeling back in my limbs..