manifest destiny

god has made manifest in man... when i become my instrument. when i realize my body is my tool. when the soul shows you the way. when the reality of this LIFE kicks in. being able to express yourself. being able to learn something new about your self everyday. realizing that no matter how much you know about a subject...theres always more to know about it.......are my fingers trying to tell me something? ..right now i write with no thought whatsoever.... freelancing and free expression.

home away from home

my fortress of 8 hour boredom... doesnt it suck to work in a cubicle... with the open space... everybody can hear you and you can hear everybody.. cubicles suck ass ...

BLAH..AGAIN...

SOME THINGS TO GET OFF MY CHEST. MY BRAINS READY TO BUST BUT GOT SOMETHING TO LOOK FOWARD TO . IM ALREADY DECEASED IM JUST WAITING FOR THE REBIRTH , FOR THE SECOND COME AROUND ... BAREWITH ME ...IM JUST TAKING MY TIME TO LET YOU KNOW ..SOMETIMES MY FEELINGS DONT WANNA SHOW.. I REMEMBER BEING YOUNG BUT NOW IM NOT. NO GOING BACKWARDS ONLY FOWARD. NO SECOND CHANCE ...JUST A SECOND TIME NOT TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE.

skate boarding

so ive been bored lately and havent had anything exciting happen for a while. i decided to pick up an old hobby ...skate boarding... yeah it sounds funny especially cause im in my mid twenties. but i got one up on those little skate punks out there....creativity...i already have a kick ass board i painted...now if i can only keep up with them...

oh how i miss you

this pic is to remind me that i had a good time once before.... times suck right now.. at least i still have my pics and memories

perdi la vista

Por casualidad...no han visto mis ojos? los perdi e ya no veo el mundo igual. solamente tengo mi tercer ojo ... que es mi guia. ya no veo nada igual ...todo esta borroso e nada me parece igual.. no recuerdo como me veo, ya no recuerdo ni quien soy.

every passing moment is

Every passing moment is a moment lost.
every passing moment is an added memory
every passing moment is one more problem
every passing moment is one more opportunity
every passing moment is one more reason to die
every passing moment is one more reason to live
every passing moment is another dissappointment
every passing moment is another chance to prove yourself wrong
every passing moment is .................

lost my vision

light bulbs out...cant find the switch or a replacement...alone in the dark ..confused and disoriented. battling my demons...force to battle yours too.. how much is to much? i dont fucken know how long i can hold on... having visions... i dont even want to describe... having dilusions that are coming to life. my heart aint that strong ..afraid its gonna bust in the middle of the fight. have to hold up my weight and those of others ..shoulders aint that strong..so we'll see how long that will last.

looking foward to....????????

lost and confused...while others are amused. feelings of hope dashed by a 9 year stint. hope is nothing but a human emotion. i learned that the only thing that life is about is waiting for something. life wouldnt be nothing if you werent looking foward to something. wether it be a vacation, a birthday, a party, a visitor, or whatever. if you had nothing to look foward to then what. what are you looking foward to ?

turn that smile upside down

I smile and hide the pain... put on this mask and play out this facade... i smile to block out the pain keep the pain from turning to tears.. im waiting for a rainy day to let my tears pour. this upside down smile is my umbrella from the tears i shed.

found a pup last night

i have a one year old hyperactive pit and yesterday i found a dober man pup... my pit is male and the doberman pup is female... my pit tries and has tried to ...let say dominate her sexually...but she is to small she looks like she is 2 months old... but i really dont know.. ive decided to keep them seperate for now.. i think hes getting jealous because he'll come and sit practically on me and my wife when ever we pet the new pup. for now her name is morena ..my pits name is buster